Life is so hard without her at my side.

There's no one giving me food. There's no one giving me drink.

My boyscout's is in. But it won't last forever for me. There are times when I have to eat real food. I'm used to drink milk to grow. I'm used to drink water to anti-oxide me. Now where's it. Must I retreat to hand on with this,?

I must retreat from war from now. I must stop my moving forward for now. I must take care internal matters' care at the cost of my move forward.

And I dunno if I cannot continue anymore in the future, if no one's take it.